*DISCLAIMER- the format may be weird on mobile devices, like words being spaced out too much. It’s because I’m posting it on my computer, since I can’t log into my account on my phone, and it’s soooooooo annoying, and frustrating*
Hey guys! Welcome back to my blog. For this post, I will be writing about how waiting for a long time can be hard for us. I personally struggle with this a lot at times, and think it’s important to educate others on this topic because I know it can be very frustrating to non autistic people, and I want everyone to be as understanding of this as possible. Lots of autistics struggle to do something the same day of having an appointment because we’re just waiting for that appointment to come. As I’m writing this, I’ve had so many appointments this week, and will have more next week regarding job coaching, and hopefully being put in an accepting environment. Anyways, lots of us, (me included) spend days thinking of upcoming appointments, and mentally preparing for them. Lately, I’ve been trying to make my plans on days I don’t have appointments, but that hasn’t worked because adulting is sucking for me right now, and I keep having to make appointment after appointment to take care of disabled people shit. What causes wait mode in neurodivergent, (not just autistic) individuals? Some of us may tend to hyperfocus/perseverate (week 23) on things like appointments, so it’s hard for us to start anything new. Me for example, knowing I’m going to a restaurant later gets me stressed out because of the thought of waiting. When I was 16, I can remember getting anxiety and started crying about waiting an hour and a half at a restaurant. My dad and sister were not understanding of how I was feeling in that moment. I was also overstimulated with all the noise. A couple years following, my dad would use that instance against me saying things like, “are you sure you can wait, and referring to that situation”. It was not an easy moment for me, especially when the people around you who love you aren’t understanding. Some autistics and other neurodivergents experience something called “wait mode”, which is when “Neurodivergent people may struggle with switching between tasks due to our difficulties with change and shifting our attention. This can make us reluctant to start anything at all”. -@neurodivergent_lou on Instagram. Wait mode can be caused by time blindness, not knowing when time is passing, and negative experiences of being late to things, so we wait to make sure we aren’t late and can not be distracted with something when we have to leave the house. If we’re already experiencing anxiety about an appointment, among other things you have to wait for, wait mode, can make our anxiety worse, which can make it hard for us to do anything other than think about what we’re waiting for. I know I haven’t posted on here in months, but lately, I’ve preferred posting short writing pieces on Embracing my Superpower’s social media, which people seem to be more receptive to, and sometimes short pieces can give the biggest messages, and hit the most. I’ve also been going through a really tough time in my personal life with my job loss. Most people probably may think I’m overreacting, but, you don’t know what went on behind the scenes when I got hired, and when I got fired. I loved that job so much, and I miss everyone dearly. I may not move on, but I will move forward. Please take a look at the post I linked below since I used it to help me write this. I love looking at autism activists posts on social media. https://www.instagram.com/p/Cl9M4iKsBUt/?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y=
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Ira Lax
3/2/2023 03:51:01 pm
I always learn something from your interesting topics, including ways we think alike and ways we don’t. It’s great reading your post again. Love... Grandpa
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